I love Halloween movies! I'm on a Halloween binge the rest of the week. AMC rocks :) Cant wait to dress up for our Halloween get together this weekend. Fall is my 2nd favorite time of the year...Winter/Christmas is my fav!! I'm a Christmas fanantic. Love all the colors and decor and mostly the real reason for the season!
My doctor's nurse called me today and let me in on what was going on. Well, this month I'm am still on the Clomid. Started today (CD3). But he wants me to come in next Thursday and have a follicle ultrasound to check and see if my follicles are looking right and such. Then start discussing IUI possibly. At least I did find out that the procedure wasn't as expensive as I thought!
So last night after the hubby got home, we talked a bit and I guess that I had talked "too much" about the baby thing because of all of the doctors appointments and such that has been going on here lately. He pretty much shut me out and told me he didn't want to think about right now. Yes, I was very hurt but it's my body right now so I guess I need to keep it to myself for while. He doesn't have to deal with it and worry that his "stuff" is messed up or disfunctional like I feel about mine. I can't hold that against him I guess. So for awhile at least, this blog is my #1 outlet for the "TTC" thoughts and such LOL. Just kind of got to me I guess. I really do feel like a failure for a lot of reasons when it comes to this. I feel like I am letting him down in a way because this was probably the last thing that he or I expected would be such a hurdle to get past. Many women goes thru fertility problems but you never really think that you will be one of those women you know. It is hard, but I know that something will change for the better. I have to keep faith in that for myself and my marriage.
God Bless ♥
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