And the Doc Says.....

I love Halloween movies! I'm on a Halloween binge the rest of the week. AMC rocks :) Cant wait to dress up for our Halloween get together this weekend. Fall is my 2nd favorite time of the year...Winter/Christmas is my fav!! I'm a Christmas fanantic. Love all the colors and decor and mostly the real reason for the season!

My doctor's nurse called me today and let me in on what was going on. Well, this month I'm am still on the Clomid. Started today (CD3). But he wants me to come in next Thursday and have a follicle ultrasound to check and see if my follicles are looking right and such. Then start discussing IUI possibly. At least I did find out that the procedure wasn't as expensive as I thought!

So last night after the hubby got home, we talked a bit and I guess that I had talked "too much" about the baby thing because of all of the doctors appointments and such that has been going on here lately. He pretty much shut me out and told me he didn't want to think about right now. Yes, I was very hurt but it's my body right now so I guess I need to keep it to myself for while. He doesn't have to deal with it and worry that his "stuff" is messed up or disfunctional like I feel about mine. I can't hold that against him I guess. So for awhile at least, this blog is my #1 outlet for the "TTC" thoughts and such LOL. Just kind of got to me I guess. I really do feel like a failure for a lot of reasons when it comes to this. I feel like I am letting him down in a way because this was probably the last thing that he or I expected would be such a hurdle to get past. Many women goes thru fertility problems but you never really think that you will be one of those women you know. It is hard, but I know that something will change for the better. I have to keep faith in that for myself and my marriage.

God Bless ♥

Night Owl..

Well, I am for sure becoming a night owl nowadays! My normal bedtime is getting to be around 4AM now. Guess I need to enjoy these days til I hopefully get preggers.

Not a big day today...just cleaned and played on the computer pretty much. Mondays are now my super lazy days LOL. Called my doc and he wants to see me in the office before he gives me my 4th round of Clomid. Glad I'm not the only one who is in shock that after 3 rounds no baby yet! He may also change my days on which to take it and possibly up the dosage :) This gives me more hope now! I also called the acupuncture lady. 2 hours for the 1st appointment! Wow! Thank goodness though my sis is going with me. I hate needles..I know, "why in the heck are ya doing it then?!" Like I said before, if it helps to get me preggers, then I will give it a go around :) Appointment is for Wednesday so this should be interesting!

Not much else for tonight...God Bless ♥

Great Song for all Married Couples Out There♥

After so many years of marriage or just being with someone, sometimes you both need to "remind" each other of that time in your relationship when loving that person took up your entire day and just seeing them or hearing their voice gave you butterflies --Dedicated to my hubby: I ♥ U

Here We Go Again....

Well, today my dear ole' Aunt Flo was due. I woke up and was so excited that she wasn't anywhere to be found! So I started my day with enthusiasm and happiness.....until around 330PM. She hit me like a ton of bricks! I always get her first thing in the morning so it threw me off. I just began to start crying. After my fertility doc told me in 1 or 2 cycles that he expected me preggers, its still a shock to me that it has been 3 cycles now and still no baby in sight.

Me and the hubby had the family over for a nice dinner and chit chat. This definitely helped keep my mind off of things for awhile. We are in the middle of trying to plan my 1st hosting of Thanksgiving this year! I am so excited about doing it! Still this time last year, I really thought that I would be hosting it with a infant on my hip. 

I am a member on a great website that has really helped me by showing so many other women out there that are going thru the same thing as we are www.cafemom.com. Since joining this website, I have been shown so many alternatives within the TTC world. Tomorrow, I am contacting a lady, who is supposed to the best in KY, for anupunture. This is a method that I have heard can help with infertility. To be honest, I HATE needles. But in this case, I will deal. Also I will be purchasing some B6 and soy isoflavones which also are supposed to help. So we'll see. I have to call the doc and let him know that the 3rd cycle of Clomid didn't work this month and have him send in a new prescription. I take it on days 5-9 but I have heard that sometimes it works better on days 3-7 so I want to discuss that with him as well. I really don't know but if it will help, I will try it at least.

So this month was not a success. But there's next month now. So up the roller coaster I go! God Bless ♥

Getting Started: A Little 'Bout Me

Hello All! I'm 25 and so happily married to the love of my life for a little over 2 years now. We were middle school sweethearts and broke up in high school when I moved to Florida. Fate brought us back together several years later and after another 4 1/2 years of dating, we said "I DO" on September 26, 2009. I always wanted that beautiful church wedding and that we what I was given :) We have 4 furbabies-Libby, Gizzy, Muzzy, and Zeus. 3 are chic-chics and Zeus is a Husky/Lab mix.

This blog is mostly for me to chat and the ups and downs of TTC (trying to conceive) our 1st child. Becoming a momma is my biggest life achievement and I hope one day that it will happen.

Background--This has been a long journey for us. We started trying right after we got married and still have yet to be successful in this. I haven't gotten preggers at all. Naturally, the hubby (in most cases of TTC with other women) is not as affected being unsuccessful with it. I do not hold this against him at all. He wants children, but he is not a stresser, unlike me. He comforts me when AF visits or if I get a BFN. In March 2010, I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). Basically I was not ovulating properly. I was put on Metformin and told to keep trying. The Metformin made me sick so I stopped taking them after a little while. We continued on the natural journey. Then in January 2011, we decided to stop trying and just focus on us for a while. Our "end" time for this process was June 2011. Finally in July, I decide to see another doctor which I knew was more dedicated and progessive with infertilyissues. He set my hubby up for a sperm check up (for which my hubs was just thrilled about..not LOL) and thankfully everything came back great! So, it was for sure that it was ALL me :(  Dr. B. started me on Clomid (a fertility drug to induce ovulation). My 1st cycle of it was in July and 2 more cycles after that. As of today, still no success. In the morning will be when AF is due, so we'll see! He said that if we have no success at the end of 6 cycles, IUI (Interine Uterine Inspemation) is next. More invasive and costly. But for a baby, we will proceed. To be honest, I would love to get preggers the old fashion way, but I don't think that's in the cards for this gal.

Having a supportive hubby that wants the things that you want is sooooooo important. I need a shoulder to lean on and so does he sometimes as well. Even though he doesn't like to admit it sometimes lol.

I have alittle more time on my hands so I am going to try to keep this blog going daily. Even if noone else reads it, it is a therapeutic outlet for me. And if I do get some followers, then I hope to give them hope or whatever it may be.

I am a Christian so you may see quotes of scriptures as well. God gets me through everything!!